Sometimes I feel like I am drowning..Life 2, playlist.
So, sorry to be away, just a bit speechless at the moment.
So I will make it up to you with lots of music instead.
All my love, as always,
And Grrrrrrrrrr to all these gorgeous tattoos.
I love a bit of body Art and these are some real artists and genuine works of Art.
Although I don’t have any my self, i have designed a few.
Maybe because I had family in places were vaccinations were essential, I grew up with so many that I am became more than a little shy of needles.
Always a pain and seemingly more of a necessary evil to me. Rather than being associated with any thing nice, let alone a passion of mine like art.
Apart from I do so love them on others. Well Only The beautiful ones obviously. Anyone who has ever watched the hysterical tatoo fixers? Will know that some are just so not art. But also can end in some unbelievable disasters. Particularly when decided on when alcohol was involved.
Plus my love of fashion means I could never chose just one design, I would want to change it all the time, so never going to happen. Also I love the giant arty ones, which are just Ouch. X
Curiously my tattoo addicted friends claim not to feel it much, or at least don’t seem to mind it. Quite clearly they don’t, with the amount they have. But for someone who thought they had a fairly high pain threshold, still…Naaa.
Some of these are just gorgeous Mmmmmmastertimepieces. X
Please don’t think that because this blog is only about the light and the positive, that I live in some Disney delusion about life. Or even some Disney life.
Or even that life has magically stopped being life for me, and I have avoided all hardships. That the perceptual guidance system and eternal teacher that is life has missed me out somehow.
I am blessed yes and have had a blessed life too, but please don’t think that I do not see the skies as dark and bleak sometimes. Or that I have not seen the full spectrum of life on earth and that I don’t understand the shade.
There have been times, years even where I was so lost that I had trouble finding the will or the strength to even be able to get up and face the day. I most definitely have.
It got so bad at one time that I reached a point of such disenchantment with everything that I didn’t see the point of even bringing a child into a world such as this…
Dark I know and the complete polar opposite of how I feel now, or how the real me feels.
So what changed?
Well let’s face it, all that could have changed is my attitude towards it all and I think my attitude to gratitude too I guess. The Universe just is and hasn’t changed coincidentally for anyone ever, so the change must have come from me.
How had I gone from the happiest, confident, capable, hopeful, glimmering joy of a child. As I believe all children are born…and end up like that?
I went from my lifelong dream of having a big happy, buzzing home, full of life, lots of kids, nature and dogs even….To that.
Sad when that happens really, when we get so squashed and re shaped in weird amorphous ways until in the end you don’t even recognise yourself.
But precisely perhaps because I have felt all of this and more for far too many years, is exactly why Instead now I choose life.
What I have learnt to do instead, is to see it all yes, light and dark which is far more constructive than wishing, hoping, avoiding or ignoring things unrealistically.
Though now I try to actively only focus my attention on the positives in any thing I see and surround my self with the same.
I cannot tell you how this one thing has revolutionised my life and my thinking. What a vast change in the energy it attracts when you do too.
How everything then looks like a blessing. Even looking back on things in your life that are gone and past are seen differently too.
All those perceived disasters are now actually blessings and the universe trying desperately to help us out of where we are not thriving and get us where we should be going.
It was just wearing a f***ing good disguise. Lol
Believe me I could write a whole blog just called, Ranty me or how to change the world with love. But let’s face it there are millions of places to moan and vent. Places that extensively only seem to focus on negatives and the bad, like the news.
I have learnt it does not help and it does not serve me at all and In fact it does the opposite and attracts more of the same. Like attracts like. So why would I bother with anything other than all the loveliness.
Instead now, I ALWAYS choose Life, Always choose Love…..Always choose Light and always choose kindness for all, but not forgetting to add me to the list too.
So This is why I created this blog Really as all of our our little save haven of such. A place where we revel in the positive, the creation, the light, the good energy and always the love.
Where we come to get away from all that negative news, where we only look up to the stars.
Imagine what could be done with a whole worldwide army of love all sending out that kind of positive energy into the world.
Mmmmmmmmmy kind of place.
I have just returned from a fabulous 4 day break in the country, by the sea with some of my fabulous friends.
We did everything we could fit in. Walked up rivers, along beaches, mooched around the beautiful town, saw a fab castle, a pretty church, climbed hills, swung over rivers, went on tiny railroads and even did a bit of wild swimming.
Well not me exactly, as the half Italian in me does not permit me to be able to swim anywhere chilly. Lol. I am without a doubt a fair weather creature that thrives in a hot place and by the sea best.
I realised that I physically NEED s time with elements, as It genuinely seems to feeds my soul. Nothing quite restores like nature does.
Apart from nature with gorgeous friends, kids and dogs that is.
I am a Part Rock chic, yes absolutely. I love people and cities. Capitals especially because I love the diversity, the buzz and the cosmopolitanism. That feeds me too, but I am also the kind of tree hugger and lover that is happy to wander through the woods just listening birdsong, the wind in the leaves or any and all water and get lost for hours.
Maybe because I am half extrovert and half introvert perhaps I feel like I need both. But I am guessing we may all need this balance of life and peace, people and trees. Community and communing with nature and the earth. Grounding ownself. This seems like equilibrium to me.
Spending this time amongst the green trees, blue skies, seas and rivers makes me feel alive, healthy and happy and revitalised.
This photo above was the view Just coming out of the local pub at 10.30 at night. After trying the rather strong local scrumpy cider, which is very alcoholic apple juice basically. A speciality in Somerset after all, so it had to be done.
We had a delicious meal and then came out to this stunning view at 10.30 at night. So understandably I am feeling super grateful and restored.
Followed by Flopping down with full bellies to lay out with cushions and covers to look at the glorious star lit sky all together. What more could I want.
I realised this post was turning into an epic, and there are so many photos to show. So now a pair of posts perhaps, for a little alliteration or even a trilogy even if needs be, starting with this day one.
I Love my friends, I love this planet, being with my son and thier amazing bouncing nee flying dog !
More on that tomorrow with photos to prove it.
Love to all of you Big hearts. X
Such talent, all of them and such wonderful feeling songs. They all have a way of transporting me elsewhere and I love it when Art does that don’t you?